I Meant What I Said ... When I Said It

Have you got a minute?

Almost immediately after Frank went to live with Jesus, someone, who was pretty much a stranger to me, asked me if I was going to move back to Texas. It really caught me off guard. My immediate response was, “No! This is my home!” And I meant it. For the twenty years I have lived in Colorado, I have lived in the same house. I have lived here longer than I have ever lived anywhere and I could not see myself living anywhere else.

The thing about grieving is that making life-changing decisions is really tricky. When we are in the throes of the shock and pain, we really don’t want to deal with any more drastic changes—especially things like a big move. So, when people would ask me this question, I just kept giving the same response. 

Then came the day that I closed out the checking account for Frank’s estate; everything had been done that needed to be done. I went to my car and began to cry. Then I went to Terri’s and cried some more. Something began stirring in my heart, it was the desire to return to my children in Texas. I missed them, plain and simple. It was hard enough missing Frank; I couldn’t do anything about that. But I could do something about this! I had a heart-to-heart talk with Abi and Josh. They let me know in no uncertain terms, “Mom, we want you to come back.” That was all I needed to hear.

From that moment on, it was as if the Lord began to quickly put things into place. I was able to sell my house here and purchase another house in Weatherford, Texas within a week. My dear and precious family and friends here gave me their blessing, along with tears and much love. The peace has been truly supernatural.

All this is to say that it’s okay to change your mind, God does not expect or require us to be omniscient…that’s His job! He does ask that we remember what James so wisely told us to do, “…you ought to say, ‘If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.’” I’m definitely going to be more careful in the future to do exactly that!

Thank you for giving me a minute!

P.S.  The move will take place in August.